Today was a bad day, if a tiger is appear in front of me, I think my angriness will tear it apart. Maybe I am so small gas. But I really dun like anything that I think is unfair. Every time I heard or I saw something that dam ignoring me, I will become so emo. I dun knw myself, y hav to so emo and suffer the attack from the evil side of me. I am the god, I am a 19 years old boy, and I really hate to control my temper. Sometime really wanted to smash their face with pancake that make me ignore them so much.
Yesterday, I watched a video posted at facebook, a man with no arm n leg but still he stay happily and stay strong n his life. I knw the fact I understand the spirit inside him, but too bad I am bt him. Think of if everyone on the earth have the same spirit of him, they will be no more wars n battle. So, please dun use the reason y the man can stay strong but I cant. The validity of my statement is hard to prove, but at least I knw this is the reason that I let myself to being evil. At least, I feel better, at least I can cold down my bad temper. I will become worst when I keep blaming myself.
Today discrete math is killing everybody, is the fact that I dun knw hw to do, is nt enough time to do, 50 minute to solve 5 question which is quite challenging. I really dun knw how to giv expression, Is that my level is far behind the standard? I study 3 days n nite. Even I just slp 4 hrs yesterday to keep study, I done at least all the tutorial question, but I still nt manage to finish it. It is very sad, put effort but cant get anything bak in the end. it nt fair again, for those who last minute study, I dun knw whether am I wrong to blame them again. But I really hate it. At least, please dun get higher mark then me, I will v sad that time and pissed off.
There 2 more test coming on Wednesday n Friday but, discrete test is totally spoiled my study mood. Just hope that my friend can stand for the pressure that he faced this few day.
So miss you now, wish that u can beside me. I cant aspect and I din aspect anything more, just hope that u can stay happily. Dun forget, I will oway stand for u, whenever u need me.
I will protect u even if it cost my life.
